it had been 12 days since i last blog. on 18th July 2007, 1850hrs, I lost my beloved grandma to Gastric Cancer. ... ... I supposed to attend class that night, but dun know why, i just didn't bring my feet to school. at 1803Hrs, i received a sms from my cousin (Xiao Hui) saying that the nurse for Assis Hospise informed that Grandma will not make it that night. I am totally lost. i walk calmly to the main road. trying to hide my saddness. when i reached the main road, got a call from mum. asking me where am i and try to go home quick... I reach out for a cabby and headed home... In my heart is always praying, that Grandma to wait for me. Finally reach home at 1845Hrs. Ran up to Grandma house and saw the house is tensed. dad and mum were by Grandma's bed side. My 2 other cousin (BoSeng & BoXian) were there too. i kneel beside grandma's bed... i kept calling her... my heart sink. my tears drop. Grandma feel very unwell, she start to take 3 deep breath and a drop of tears row down from her left eye and she stopped ... her heart beat stopped, her breathing stopped. I am totally blank... I kept calling her but no replies. I miss her . i have lost her.